Sunday, July 06, 2008
3rd july, thursday:
didn't have to date my books for the whole day. the whole school was busy preparing for the funfair instead. but i still had my chinese o level oral after school. everyone of us were scared and nervous, including myself. but everything that made me scared/nervous went away after greeting the two teachers. they were nice and friendly, thank God. reading was so-so, didn't know how to read some words. conversational was alright i guess, it was on youth olympics. was able to speak out, more than usual actually. went home after that.

4th july, friday:
last day of funfair preparation. i think for once or rather, twice, the school's so noisy, all because of the funfair. haha. cabbed down to blue horizon for amath tuition with michelle in the late afternoon. didn't really listening to what my tutor was teaching, cause i was very very tired. heh. then went to michelle's house after tuition to wait for my mum to pick me up. we continued watching memoirs of a geisha while waiting. when my mum came to pick me up, she told me something i didn't expect to happen - my nanny passed away that morning. i turned into silent mode for the whole night after hearing that big bad news. my nanny you know! she's only 62 this year and she went away so suddenly. and so, went back to bathe, have dinner then went for the funeral wake after that. stayed there till 3 plus in the morning.

5th july, saturday:
CARNIVAL@FAIRFIELD 2008. slept for awhile, and went to school at 7. the funfair was overall alright i guess. it was tiring walking here and there though, my legs were aching. walked home with patten, aileen, marcus lim and glenn after the funfair. then went out for dinner with my family and went to the funeral wake again after that. oh, thank you for those who tried to cheer me up. i'll be better in time.

I never knew i could hurt like this.
And everyday life goes on like,
"I wish i could talk to you for awhile",
"I wish i could find a way try not to cry".
As time goes by,
And as soon as you reach a better place,
Still i'll give the whole world to see your face.
And i'm right here next to you.
It feels like you're gone too soon.
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye.

You know it's been said that we just don't recognise the significant moments of our lives while they're happening. We grow complacent with ideas or things or people, and we take them (her) for granted. And it's usually not until that thing (person) is about to be taken away from you that you realise how wrong you've been, that you realise how much you really need it (her), how much you love it (her).
-One Tree Hill